Melody.

“Change starts from the classroom” I just finished my micro-teaching class and I’m left with two more classes. This sentence was from my personal tutor who apparently is also my tutor for micro-teaching. She said these words during the last day of our class and it’s stuck inside my mind. Being an educator is certainly not easy, especially when people doubt your credibility. But I don’t care what people say since I’m very passionate about teaching. I love the sense of satisfaction I get from my students when they are able to finish a certain work or when I praise them or when they finally open up to me. I don’t know how to describe the feeling but it feels special. Someone trust you enough and I never experienced that before. Sometimes I get emotional when I look at my students face or when I look at their work, I know it’s weird but I love it! I want to be a teacher that is able to start a change inside the classroom. I want my classroom to be a safe port for my student, where t...

With this economy not being stable, why did you choose to leave your job? Tahu tak betapa susahnya untuk dapat job these days?  But still, I decided to leave my amazing job as a teacher to further my studies. You'd probably wonder why I did that right? *chuckles*   It was hard for me too because I love my job, my work place, my colleague and most of all I love my students whom until today I call my children. The sad part was, they didn't even know I was leaving since I didn't want to let them get emotional.  I left because I wanted to and pursuing Masters has been my dream since I was in high school. To study outside of Malaysia and learn more about education and language. When I got the chance to pursue it in UK and when my mom gave her green light, I couldn't resist. I couldn't not take it. So, I left my job and went away. It was hard, really, to leave the job you love and go somewhere you aren't sure whether you would succeed or not. But I made th...

I’m struggling.  Living and studying overseas, people have a lot of expectations especially when they think that you are not suited to study overseas. Usually I wouldn't mind what people think and I don’t. But I do mind what I think of myself. It’s not easy being alone without your family and your close friends. It’s not easy when you don’t like to cook even though you know how to cook. It’s not easy when you hate the weather and wished that it would always be spring or summer. It’s not easy at all. But I can’t really complain can I? I chose to do this. I was the one who wanted it. But you know what, it’s okay if I’m struggling. It’s okay if I cry every day, it’s okay if I don’t talk to anyone and am a lone wolf. It’s okay. Because the next day, I’ll still remember why I came here the first place, why I need to work hard and not let gloomy days depress me. Why I chose to do this. So yeah. Here’s the thing, You just got to trust God and yourself. Don’t ever lo...

You know when times you feel lonely that you stare your ceiling bedroom and wonder  "What am I doing in life?"   Somehow, I tend to do that these days and it bothers me because I don't know what I'm doing with my life right now. Wait, I actually do know but I'm not sure if I'm in the right path. You get me? When things get hard, especially when I know I have many assignments to do and dissertation to think about, I start overthinking and it actually sucks. I usually let this all out using twitter but since I'm no longer on that website, I decided to tell it on my blog.  I'm actually not sure what I'm going to write on this blog or whether I'm going to let other people see it but we'll just see how it goes.  on the recent news, I just became 24 (yeay me!) but I'm not that excited as I know my time is ticking and I still have many things I want to do and explore. 24 is a very huge number and while other people (including my...